All posts tagged: college

Still Overwhelmed

College is hard. I just wanted to validate that. If college feels difficult and overwhelming to you, you’re not alone. Anyone who brushes you off when you say you’re feeling burnt out by saying something like “You’re young, you can live without sleep!” or “Just wait until you get into the real world!” (as if universities are part of some mysterious “fake world”) is not a person you need to worry about. I just graduated earlier this year. I was lucky enough to land a full-time position in my field almost immediately, which felt like a miracle. I really enjoy my job and generally feel really lucky. I am also still recovering the aftershocks of burnout from school. It’s weird to say that five months after graduation. I feel like I should be at the point where I can relax and enjoy my free time more. I thought by now I’d have more energy to tackle stuff like housecleaning and general life improvement stuff. I thought I’d get to feel like a normal human who …

Just gonna put this here…

Mostly just so that when I get out of Finals Hell in a few weeks I have a little road map for myself and how I wanna spend my summer. Freedom from academia is so close, y’all, and I’m dying to taste it. I’ve really been wrestling with whether or not I want to go to grad school right away. There’s a part of me that feels like I should–particularly the part that has already applied and been accepted to two different programs, the part of me that listens to my mom, the part of me that has been excitedly telling family and friends about the possibility of going to school in Ireland in the fall–but there’s a much bigger part of me that is just… tired. I really don’t feel like I could give grad school my all right now. I am academically exhausted. Grad school is definitely something I want to do. I really want to get my Masters and maybe someday even my PhD. I absolutely love school and I don’t think …

Senioritis

By the end of this month, bar some unforeseen disaster, I’m going to be a college graduate. I’m excited and terrified and not totally certain what the future holds. I’m really leaning toward getting my master’s in Literature right away, but I also want to take a breather. I’m trying to let my excitement and worry fuel me. I’ve been crippled by senioritis this year, which I didn’t expect because I have always been the type of person who loves school. But for some reason, it has been so much harder to achieve my academic goals. I think it’s just exhaustion after this four-year academic sprint combined with working way too much during the last two school years. I want another 4.0 GPA, but I’m also dying for a really long nap. Fingers crossed that my desire to achieve wins out, at least for the next couple weeks. Especially when we’re getting beautiful 75-degree weather that has me actually wanting to go outside and play in the rare San Francisco sunshine… (proof that we actually …